here's what I've been doing. (today, every day, in no particular order)
- watching thirtysomething because it's so real and so true and it's guiding all of my decision-making as a late twentysomething. I'm half serious. Quarter serious? Not serious at all. But it's a really good show.
- making plans to have an incredible summer and full on actually truly really amazingly having one.
- working seven days a week. I started doing this again in February and life's flying by. I feel sedentary and good-for-nothing if I'm NOT working until I hit some blessing of a three day weekend and I realize what it's like to be a human and not a cyborg. Be a human. It's so much better. There was a moment a couple weeks ago where I was eating breakfast in the sun with the whole day ahead of me and I can just remember looking at the person sitting next to me and feeling ACTUAL f'realz peace in my heart. Cyborgs don't get that. I didn't have that for so long. I can't believe what I was missing.
- living with my kid brother! oh Lord. Imagine?
- wondering where I'm going next. For so long (about three years) I had such a vision. It was foggy in some parts but if you kind of have an idea of the major stops along the way I guess it brings you a lot of comfort and you forget to do and even BE new things. I can see life as something really dynamic now and even though the rent-paying and the grown-up being is so unbelievably marked with stress and wrinkles and giving cats flea medication, I can still be anybody. How could I have lost sight of that?
I'm not turning into a hippie, I swear. I think what happened is I realized that 'stability' doesn't need to be 'sameness'. Life didn't get boring. I did.
I still love my cats and I'm still strange and I still love Harry Potter (but haven't seen the fucking movie yet somehow), and a day on a couch with a pile of All Dressed Ruffles is still blissful if it's with the right bloke. BUT: it doesn't make a life.
This post was so unbelievably self-centred. Fun fact about self-centredness: it means I don't actually care that I'm being self-centred. Joke's on all y'all.
happy 2011 and beyond
3 comments:
1. good for you!
2. see the last HP.
3. love ruffles chips.
4. it seems like yesterday i received a birthday card from you when i turned 4 or 5 and your kid brother signed it as well and drew a picture.
all grown'd up!
ps. come dancing on sat.
TRE! Je suis triste about it, but I'll be in St. Catharines on Saturday. Where are y'all going out?
neu+ral! they've apparently returned to the rs-esque vibe since early may but we haven't had the chance to head that way.
too bad you won't be intown, but future foot stompin' to beats to come!
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